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Mini Update

So I have literally just got back from swimming and here is my news:

Despite being in a bikini I didn’t get self-conscious at all 🙂

So hopefully this is a step in the right direction

C

Update Post #1 – Arms

My arms are getting bigger 🙂

Bit random but hey ho. Basically my arms a re tiny, my biceps (untensed) are 24cm round, the area after my elbow is 24 cm and my wrists are 13.5cm. But my forearms are getting bigger. The main reason I have such tiny arms is because there is not a lot of muscle in there and years of anorexia have not exactly built up my muscle. But this at least shows I’m getting healthier and my body is rebuilding itself.

🙂

Mass Update

So…Me and my partner have started cooking….his cooking skills extend to Ratatouille and mine extend to a full English Breakfast…just kidding the best thing I can cook is beans on toast. We have been cooking little cake-y things, the first one was a disaster, it looked like a stone with moss on it, but last week’s one wasn’t so bad, sugary cookie base, chocolate vanilla pudding and chocolate topping, yum 🙂 Ok, so the presentation wasn’t amazing and we called them the Blob Cakes, but I’m more aware of taste now, and this is helping to steadily build up a realtionship with food, which is sometihng I don’t have. So that’s good.

Reading the article in the last post I decided to see how I would fare next to a professional model in measurements, the Association of Model Agents say a girl should be around 34-24-34 in and at least 5 ft 8 in (1.73 m) tall. I am 30.5-26-37.5 and i’m  5 ft 8 in tall. So I’m bigger than a model…and I’m a recovering anorexic who is still way to skinny, something doesn’t seem right here. The model in the article is 33-24-35 and 5ft10 in, my hips and waist are bigger than her, she may be taller, but really?

Random fact: the original model measurements: 35.5-23.5-35.5 in (90-60-90 cm) were based on the alleged measurements of Marilyn Monroe…so how about we go back to using measurements of real people…and not mannequins?

I’ve been rather stressed with school lately as well. I’m academically capable of going to a really prestigious university, but I’m also very ill, and the stress of having to get the grades (BBB minimum) was making me too stressed and ill so I had the choice of lose the prestigious uni and go to a lesser one which I love and have my partner with me or go to the prestigious one alone…I chose the less prestigious one as their grades are BC and I can get in there really easily.

And another friend of mine has bulimia…seems it’s just taking people out one by one 😦

So that’s my update so far…

C

Just a quick update

I have gone from 7stone13 (I lost weight) to 8stone1. I am finally seeing someone for psychiatric help again next Monday (14th). Life’s tough at the moment with illness and stress but on the up side I’m beginning to enjoy food and actually be able to taste it properly now which is a plus 🙂

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